You have to do something for your soul, right? People say this like they know it, but then they don't do it and they get in ruts and lose their footing and get angry. I do anyway. I get angry when I'm not feeding that something else inside me. And because I have a child and a man and a thousand things on a to-do list, this act equates with selfishness in my head (how can I ask him to watch Lane MORE than he already does? how can I ask Lane to go to bed five nights in a row without me? how can I spend so much money on myself?) but it's not selfish - it's necessary. People can't be in two places at once and they can't function with burnt-out souls. Your body and your mind - you have to keep that stuff healthy.
So I decided this week, while Plexus Dance is on hold as Juliana is in Israel dancing with Ohad, that I'd do something for my soul. And I signed up for aerial silks every night of the week with Carolina Aerial Dance Exchange even though I haven't touched silk in three full years. And now, going into my last day of class - I feel it. I feel it in my abs and arms and back and I feel it when I try to go to sleep at night.
I'm not thinking about anyone else when I'm preparing for a drop in silk. I couldn't even if I wanted to - because your mind doesn't work the same up in the air, in fact it completely disappears. Then all the chatter disappears too and it's just your breath, loud in your ears, drowning out everything else.